The life that is waiting

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This has been a challenging post that, honestly, I didn’t know how to approach. My blog is read by very few so I don’t know what the concern was but there is something about posting on the internet that makes it seem so monumental. I haven’t posted in a while so I could just start anew and not mention anything but when I saw this quote, I thought that it had to be my beginning.

38 years ago, the life I had planned was very different than the one I am in now. I was married to a wonderful man and couldn’t wait to be a wife and mom. Oh, I would do it right. I would always explain to my children whenever I disagreed and they would be great kids and very respectful. My husband adored me and I him and we would always laugh and enjoy the simple things in life. Well, I was right on one account. I have great kids! But I no longer have my husband. He passed at the end of December and I guess I am still trying to see where I fit in. I had resigned my job with hopes of a better job where my boss is not a moron and be with Jim as he improved and got to come home. Well, bless his heart, he was in the hospital from September 1 until December 27 and only got to come home for two days.

I have stayed really busy and checked off a lot of my “to do” list that has been hanging over my shoulders. Getting my mom’s house ready to put on the market has really helped me purge “junk” from my own house. Do you know I found a drawer that had unused credit cards from 2004? Gasp.

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Mom always scolded me that I couldn’t just keep my head in the sand forever but I disagree. I don’t hold grudges and I don’t dislike most people (it can be done but not easily) and I don’t like sad things so I refuse to think about them. If it works for me, can’t I exist this way? Will one day my head explode with all of the hurtful, awful, sad things that I pushed to the far corners of my mind or will I be allowed to live in my little world? Will thinking there is good in everyone and for those that aren’t, that “what goes around, comes around” keep me from living a happy life? You can tell me but I’ll probably ignore you because that’s what I have to do. But I would pretend I was listening. . .

So how am I filling up my days. I have spent time with family, spent a lot of time cleaning out a huge house (Mom’s), cleaned closets and drawers that have been neglected far too long. I have watched 28 videos out of a total of 124 in my quest to learn Adobe Illustrator. I have completed the last two years income taxes, painted the coffee table, cleaned out the gutters and installed a new ice-maker. I have started a new quilt and have ideas for many more and gone through some crazy cleaning sprees.

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If the good Lord is willing, I know I’ll be okay but it will be different.

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Here is what’s been going on . . . as told by my iPhone

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There was swimming and napping and chillin’ in the sun!

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and cooking and eating and chillin’

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some serious Nerf gun wars,

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a little sewing,

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a wedding

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and a new beginning.

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From Bats to the Blues

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Hello and welcome to almost Spring.

As a sun-lovin’ creature, summer is my favorite time of the year. In East Texas, we have had some 80 degree days and some in the 30’s. Weird weather going on but summer will be here soon.

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I have a made a couple of business trips lately where I had an opportunity to enjoy some of the local flavor of the area. Since my blog is really more like a personal journal, I want to journal those memories.

I visited Austin for a workshop with Tom Kulmann and David Anderson. They are with Articulate but probably best known for their outstanding blog, The Rapid eLearning Blog.

Well, if you live close to Austin or have ever visited you know that 750,000 Mexican free-tail bats arrive in Austin around March and you can watch them take flight through October. People gather at Congress Avenue Bridge around sundown to witness the flight.

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While it may look like smoke in the distance, those are actually the bats in flight.

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This past week, I visited St. Louis for USDLA. The last night there, a group of us went to a baseball game. The Busch stadium is great. I don’t think there is a bad seat in the place. I enjoyed the game but had trouble clapping for the Cardinals. I still don’t forgive them for the 2011 World Series.

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Following the game, we walked a couple of blocks to a blues club, The Beale on Broadway.  There we met the Diva of St. Louis, Kim Massie. She was such an entertainer. She could sing like Aretha and really talked and interacted with the crowd. As a Motown fan, I definitely enjoyed my time there.

Hope everyone has a great week. Don’t take your time or your family for granted. We are not guaranteed another day.

Be careful for nothing; but in every thing by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known unto God.

– Philippians 4:6

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Hanging out with John Quinones

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I just returned from the TxDLA conference and our opening keynote was John Quinones http://abcnews.go.com/WhatWouldYouDo/. John arrived the evening before he was to speak and came by the opening reception in the vendor hall. We asked if he would come by a social I was having for the Board. To our surprise, he did! And what a nice guy. He said a lot of people say, “we were poor and we didn’t know it” but he said, “we were poor and we knew it!”

John was a great guy who seems to genuinely care about people. The conference was great as always and the setting was beautiful at Moody Gardens in Galveston, Texas. My room was upgraded by the hotel to a room with an adjoining parlor. . . sweet!

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I returned home just in time to enjoy Easter with the family. A tradition started many years ago by my mother-in-law Jo Nell Smith, is ham dressing at Easter. She taught me how to make and I have been continuing the tradition now for 24 years.

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I wish I had set up the tripod and got a picture of everyone (or at least have taken a better picture) but I think the food was enjoyed by all.

What did you have for Easter dinner?

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New Day

One day you wake up and your babies are toddlers. Then you turn around and they are in college, they are working, and they are having families of their own. You feel like your heart is going to burst because then they give you grandchildren! While raising your family, you do many things without thinking; you are planting a garden, canning, cleaning house, sewing, having a baby, washing clothes, helping with homework and starting school but something else has also changed. You are getting older.

You assume this will happen, heck, we hope this will happen but I know I didn’t think about what the reality would be. My new goal of running is making me open my eyes to what has been going on for the last forty years. It sounds cliche but where has the time gone? And if I am asking rhetorical questions, where did these flabby arms come from?

One day, you are in okay shape and then “BAM” it happened. You assume you would never change but it doesn’t work like that. You have to make a conscience effort to do the things that previously were just a part of your life. With no garden to tend, now I have to do squats. I can’t chase my children and pick them up and throw them in the air. Number one, I couldn’t catch them and two – they are too big. Now I need to lift weights and exercise.

As a new mom, I always wished children came with an instruction manual. Yes, there were books out that let you know what to expect when they are 3 months, 6 months, 1 year, 2 years, etc., but nothing to tell you what to tell them what to do so they will believe in themselves, be the awesome individual you knew they were and have great memories of growing up. Nothing, to tell you how to handle those tough decisions that parents have to make. My decisions were often made by prayer and gut feelings. I’m sure my choices were not always the right one but now they get to make those same decisions for their family. Hopefully, they now understand better what me and their dad went through.

When my life made a turn (that I didn’t realized was even in motion), I sure could have used a book to wake me up. Hey, when you turn 30, better start laying off the fried foods. Okay, now you are 40, better start lifting weights. 50 – start those pre-menopausal vitamins and make a workout schedule and stick to it! That would have prepared me better for what I face now…that I have missed some precious years and now have to practice “catch up” time. But I am determined. It’s like competing in a race and always getting beat but in this race, the person beating you is you. I have bought books on running, have the best shoes for running and the appropriate spandex attire but what it boils down to is this is something I will have to work at. It is not going to come easy for me because there were many years that I was way too sedentary and frankly indifferent to maintenance. So why not give up? Because what would that book say at age 60, age 65, age 70? Do I want to still have this 25 year old image in my mind and not be able to run across the yard? Do I want to be too old to go and do everything I want to do? Yeah, I don’t think so. It sucks that now I will have to work at something that was so natural before but that is what it is. Time is speeding by me and I want to continue enjoying them. For me to enjoy the next 20, 30, 40 years, I have to stop taking things for granted.

Okay, I know I have been rambling. I think I am determined and scared. Scared that I may talk myself out of quitting again. I stink at running. I’m not stopping now but I know that it would be way too easy to stop for just a little while. What the 25 year old in me wants is to consider this a new day and start new habits that will stay with me for the next 25 years.

Here are workout songs on my playlist, don’t judge remember I have a 25 year old struggling to get out:)

  • Thrift Shop
  • Don’t Stop the Party
  • Shoop
  • Air Force Ones
  • Break Your Heart
  • Right Round
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Weekend Update

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Meet Mr. Little

This is just a short post to introduce you to the newest member of the Smith household (thankfully not this Smith household!)

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Wes is five. WOW. No more babies in the family.

I think all of the kids had a great time with the bounce house, pinata, merry-go-round, pizza and cupcakes.

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Addi made biscuits Sunday morning.

Yep…making memories.

Hope your week is great!

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